Soooo...

How much of a failure am I? Like seriously! One of my friends is not talking to me at ALL coz I'm spending my time with other friends but when I try to spend time with her she doesn't wana do anything, or talk or ANYTHING! Seriously what am I to do?! And I'm meant to be going home today but there's been a major cock up with the post office so I now have to pick something up from there before I go. I've been throwing up ALL night and now never wana eat again and I don't seem to be able to put weight on and keep it there. :( Not having a terrific time right now. The only thing keeping me goin atm is the AMAZING ppl in flat 8B. Worried about mum, so don't want there to be anything wrong with her. And how looong does it take to get biopsy results? Like forever! That's how long! Well anyways I have ben ill tonight in front of Sam and Ben and I now wana curl up into a ball and for the world to open up and swallow me. :( FAIL!

This is a photo of the drawing I STILL have not finished. But this is it so far. Am going to do a painting a lil more epic than this I hope.



V has now gone to rehab and I know what a shitty touch time she's gonna have. I feel terrible too coz before she left A and I had a row and A made out that I thought V was an attention seeker which I do not think at ALL!!!! I love her to pieces and I honestly think she is one of the bravest, strongest people I know. I really really hope that V didn't go away thinking that I think that about her. Will write a letter to her asap. Although I am not Christian her rehab is a christian one. Am gonna scan through the big B book and see what quotes I can find to send her.


This photo is yes, me as a cat. The night out we had for V was wkd. I danced like a complete loon and didn't feel self-conscious once which is very very good considering how much of a recluse I was a few months ago.

And alas. This is my art work for creative studies. I'm not sure if its right though, so epic fail on my part there. :( Not having a happy night tonight. Well, now its 7.38 am. FAIL!!!

LovLov my marshmallowy loving peeps